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20,284

I’ve written 20,284 words for one of my books. I read that the average non-fiction book is 80,000 pages, which means I’m a little over 25% of the way there! I’ve been writing since April 24th, which means I’ve written all those words in around two weeks, averaging 1267.75 words a day over 16 days. That doesn’t take into account the words in my memoir, and this blog. Over all three projects I’m pretty sure I’m averaging 2,000 words a day. It’s crazy, I feel really excited and kind of addictive.

I want to say it’s all good, but I have to admit that maybe I could be putting more effort into my finals. Today I showed up to the lab at 4 to work on finals and by 7:30 I hadn’t even opened my file. That’s the bad news, the good news is I wrote close to 4,500 and one of the best things I think I’ve ever written.

In my defense I’m at the head of the curve in terms of my final, and I’d say I’m still in the top third of the class. I really have to say, since starting this blog my life feels way better. I’m more productive, losing weight, reaching my goals and it’s finally beging to feel like things are turning around.

Not bad considering I was in fact considering suicide just before I started this blog.

If you’re reading this my advice is stop putting things off. I’ve always wanted to write a book but I feel like I kept waiting for permission. I always thought that if I got just a little more experience I’d be in a position where I deserved the right to write a book. Finally I decided that that day would probably never come, very few of us have those kinds of chances given to us. Sure, Snooki is pushed to write a book even though most people don’t think she can read, but for the rest of us if we want to write we should just write. if you want to learn an instrument pick one up and sign up for classes. Hell, just pick it up!

They say the first step is the hardest, but I’d say it’s the first few. I’ve started a lot of things but finished very few of them, the trick is to work of the momentum to where you can’t stop, where you’re constantly thinking about that next step and you can’t wait to take it.
Once again, the regrets always creep up. Even when I’m succeeding I say to myself “If only you’d been like this your whole life, think of the time you wasted!” But for all I know I never would have been able to achieve my full potential if it wasn’t for the time I think I wasted. I can’t prove that, but it’s possible on one hand and what I have to believe on the other.

If I seem like I repeat things a lot it’s because this blog is for me. I hope it helps you too, but I’d understand if it doesn’t cover an exciting range of topics. The thing for me is we don’t need to know all that much to succeed, for the most part. People are always looking for new strategies but I would wager most of the time that they already have the tools they need but they’re just not using them.

I’d guess you know what you need to do, you just need to let go of your excuses and start doing them.

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Of Grizzly Bears and Excuses

I woke up this morning and checked reddit again, I really am an addict, and saw something that made me get up and get on with my day.
It was the title of the post, “I was blinded and severely mauled by a grizzly bear and barely lived to tell about it. I’ve adjusted to blind life and gone on to earn my masters, marry the love of my life, write a book, raise two kids, and land my dream job.
If those words don’t sort of blow you away I’m going to assume you’ve already heard the story.
For all the troubles in my life it’s things like this that remind me how blessed I am. While I’m incredibly thankful that I’ve been blessed with all that I have I have this constant worry in the back of my mind that it has somehow weakened me. I’m so used to being in a relatively comfortable position that I’m afraid anything could break me. I couldn’t imagine going through what Mr. Bigley went alone, let alone moving past it to flourish the way he has. Honestly I can’t imagine living a life like his even with all my advantages.

Maybe it’s because of my advantages that I can’t imagine being successful like him. To be fair, early advantages are one of the better indicators of later success, but I truly believe that the highest levels of success are only open to people who have had to overcome. No one in the history books got there by enjoying a comfortable complacency.

That’s what this blog is about, pushing the limits. I’m talking about being a person who isn’t just happy to be good at one thing, but pushing outside their comfort zone and constantly expanding your horizons. Every day can be a blessing if we take the opportunity  although believe me it almost never naturally feels that way to me. With my messed up mind I tend to look at every day like a curse, it requires a conscious effort to rise above what was handed to me and work toward turning things around.

One of the first steps toward turning your life around is turning your mind around, and I’d suggest reading Mr Bigle’ys account if you’d like some good encouragement when it comes to re-framing how you look at life. Although I’m not sure I’d do it through reddit, great site but it can be a time waste. Here’s an article written by Dan about his life, a lot of great lessons to be learned.
Speaking of lessons learned I’m now downloading a google app called chrome nanny to block facebook and reddit so that I can’t use them when I’m at school and I should be doing work instead of looking at silly pictures.

I don’t think it’s true that what doesn’t kill us necessarily makes a stronger, but the countless stories out there of people overcoming incredible odds proves that we can always become stronger. I’m not saying it’s easy, I know it can be hard as hell trying to turn things around, but it can be done. Sometimes that all we need to remember.

Until we’re dead we can always make things better, even if it’s just a little bit. That right there is my definition of hope.

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What do you want your memoir to say?

Usually you hear the question in the title posed something like,”how do you want your eulogy to read?” Or, “What do you want to be remembered for after your gone?” If this line of thinking  inspires you, then by all means think that way.

I personally find this line of thinking kind of morbid, and I’m a naturally morbid person. I honestly don’t think I’ll care that much about my eulogy or how historians will talk about me centuries from now, I imagine I’ll be too dead to pay attention to the world of the living. Instead I’m interested in what people will say about me when I’m living. I chose memoir rather than biography because frankly, I’m the person who I most need to impress.

Think about the celebrities you know of, about all those behind the music documentaries you might have seen. You probably noticed, like me, that the people we as a society heap praise upon the most actually have the hardest time living with themselves. Even if they somehow are able to thrive off the approval of strangers there inevitably comes a day when things begin to change. Old fans move on, critics sour, the sales go down, the list goes on and on. Think of the groups that used to play stadiums that now tour state fairs. 

This isn’t to say you should straight up ignore what other people think, we’re social beings and we need each other to make it through this life. By all means care about other people and try to do your best to help them, but don’t rely on them for your self worth. I’m not a parent, but I know from experience as a child that the job can be thankless. You can sacrifice everything for your kid and they might still resent you. The trick, as I understand, is to believe in yourself and what you’re doing.

I have to admit, I need to work a lot on this. I barely know the meaning of the term “self esteem.” A dear friend of mine had me repeat positive affirmations with her and it physically hurt to say them. The simple words “I am not a bad person” felt hollow and painful. Lately I’m moving forward bit by bit, it’s hard but I feel like I’m headed in the right direction.

One step I’m taking is working on a memoir. I’m still young, no matter how I feel, and I’ve seen so little that the thought of writing it kind of makes me laugh. Ultimately it doesn’t matter, I like writing and searching through the past for the story I have to tell is helpful, and I think it’s bringing some things into clarity that will help me further on.

I want to write more about this later, but for now I’ll leave you with these thoughts: What do you want your memoir to say? Why aren’t you writing yours now? If you said it’s because your life is too boring, what are you going to do to make your life a story worth hearing?

If you trust this site the average human life is 28,000 days long, and I’d wager every life that long has a book worth of stories in it if someone would just take the time to dig in and pull them out. And until your dying day you’re shaping that next chapter, make it a good one.

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